☾-narcotic-☾

AMAZING.

all i can say.

OMG.

I miss having someone to talk to

I miss waking up next to him

I miss his hugs

I miss the way he’d kiss me on the fore head

I miss the way he made fun of my laugh

I miss the way we’d have hundreds of silly names for each other

I miss the way we could do anything around each other

I miss the fact he was also my best friend

I miss the way i could tell him anything

I miss the cuddles he gave me when i hurt myself

I miss watching movie’s all day

I miss eating Chinese and watching shit TV

I miss the way his smile made me smile

I miss the way i felt so safe when i was around him

I miss the play fights

I miss being his cakey

I miss having someone to hold when i was cold

I miss how easily i fell asleep when i was in his bed

I miss the Earl Grey mornings

I miss his beautiful eyes

I miss constant dissing

I miss the love i felt

I miss how whole i felt

I hate the way everything turned out

I hate how empty i feel

I hate how angry i get

I hate how he doesnt even realise

I hate how he doesnt seem to care anymore

I hate how he can’t keep promises

I hate how he’s too scared to love

I hate how it got to this

I hate how it ended

I hate the way i feel like its all my fault

I hate how its not

I hate not having him

I hate how he’s not mine anymore

I hate how Ive lost everything i ever wanted to be

I hate the feeling of loosing him

I love him so much, I love him more than anything, I love everything about him and i always have, I was actually IN love with him, and thats rare for me, I never open up to anyone, I never dedicate my life to people, I never trust anyone, But he was different, he made me feel like me.

I miss him so much.